“Maenuel, tell us, please, about
Your last incarnation. In particular, how did You
realize, recall the Unity with the Father? Or did
You know this from the beginning, from the
childhood?”
“No, not from the beginning… It took
a lot of time to unite My new body with the
realization of Who I am…
“Since early childhood, I had been
seeking this Unity, the memory of which lived
somewhere in the great depth… I sought Him! And this
led Me to an Orthodox monastery. But My spiritual
mentor ― a sincere and kind man who taught Me
humility, obedience, and meekness ― could not answer
those questions which gave no rest to the soul: he
could not show Me the way to the United Father,
because he himself did not know Him…
“Because of asceticism, which gave
no results, because of the suggested ideas of
inaccessibility of the Creator, of impossibility to
cognize Him, and because of the doctrine of
everlasting peccability of man in front of Him, in
which I was taught, I was almost on the point of
despair…
“Later on, having not found answers
among people, I directed My eyes and My love only to
Him.
“I asked for the permission and went
to a forest… Here I was alone… And I strived for Him
incessantly…
“… And one day ― in the moment of
the strenuous exertion of the soul, which broke free
from a cage, from a dungeon, I left the body like a
stuffy cell and ‘fell’ into His Light…
“He was Endless, Living! And
Everything was created by Him in the Eternal
Radiance of His Light, Everything was filled with
Him and based on Him!...
“It was the Ocean of Love and Calm!
And I also became this Ocean!
“I did not want to return back. I
swam to the body and swam off again, submerging into
the long-awaited Unity, Coessentiality, and into the
state of dissolving in Him…
“The Ocean called Me by the very
familiar name:
‘Maenuel!...’
“And I recollected My previous path
to Him.
“… An endless expanse of Manchurian
steppes, joy and freedom! Running horses, with manes
streaming in the wind, and the boy, united with the
horse, are flying above the waving sea of
grasses!... I recollected the monastery in the
mountains, wise teachers, and the expanse between
the sky and earth with a carpet of gentle vermilion
poppies. I recollected the state, which flooded all
My being ― the state of inexpressible love to the
Earth, to all what exist on it, to His Creation! I
recollected the meditations of Mergence with Him and
for what I am here for now…
“… Then I returned to the body…
“I built a monastery on the place
where I attained the Unity with Him again. And I
tried to give people that Knowledge and that Love
which lived in Me now… But it was similar to the
oceanic waves which, with their transparent water,
caress the shore stones, but cannot transmit to them
the infinity of the depths…
“I had some disciples… Among them,
there were real ones, but the rest were mostly
children in adult bodies whom I taught by My
own example: to carry water, to chop firewood, and
at least to recollect about Him sometimes…
“… I left the imperishable body on
the Earth. But it is such a pity that most of
pilgrims seek healing for their bodies near it! And
only so few see the Ray of the Light of Spirit, the
Ray of Love which is the Way to the Father!
Realize how great the wealth which
you collected is: the methods of growth from the
state of human, living as a body, to the realized
Divinity! I wished I’d had similar methods!... Give
them to people! Give the entire Ocean of Creator’s
Love to them!
“I am with you! I am beyond each
word of you! I am ― in your activities ― continuing
My Service on the Earth!
Yours
Maenuel
